Goals Before I Turn 30

Today I am 29. I know cue the CELEBRATIONS :)

So I wanted to search the internet for a picture of a happy birthday but I came across this on my own computer and even though its not me, it is one of my favorite pictures of all time hehe My lil Peanut when she turned 1

Anyways, so yes today I am 29. I thought back to last year at this time and what I was doing and what I was thinking. A ton of crap has changed this last year, some of it good, some of it not so good. But in the end of it all, I think I have landed in a much better place than I was. At this time last year I was struggling internally and not really letting many people know what was going on.

This time, this year, I am in a better place with a lot of things. I have bonded with my sisters again, and we have become closer than ever. I have bonded better with my daughter, and watched her grow up even more. I have bonded with myself. I have learned what makes me happy and decided that it was time to allow myself to feel that way everyday.

So now, as I reflect back on my life, and where I want it to go, I decided that I will set myself some goals for the next year as well. Because this time next year I will be turning 30! Imagine that. So I thought how perfect come up with some goals, should be simple enough right?
Wrong. Well kind of. I will list as many as I can :)

-Run a 50 miler. I fell in love with ultra running since the day I ran 29 miles in a snow storm. I won the first 50K I ran back in Jan and I have decided I need to go for the 50 and will do that on November 3rd at the Stonecat 50. 
-Try a triathlon. I know, I know I said I never would but since I have been injured and can only swim, I have come to see it might not be so bad and it might actually be fun ;) We will see I would like to do an ironman one day but before I turn 30 I would like to do a half ironman
-Get a new half marathon PR. This is still haunting me since last fall and I ran a 1:46. I really think I can go sub 1:40 no problem now
-Get certified to be a CPT. I have been studying for the test with the ACSM now I have to pass it.
-Graduate from school. This may be a stretch because I have a lot of credits left to do so it might take a little over a year but I am determined to finish it up.
-Start writing my book. I have some good plans for it :)

That is all for now, I am sure I will come up with a few more along the way.

I am grateful to God for all I have achieved so far, and I feel blessed to be surrounded by such a wealth of family and special friends in my life.

I Am Still Fighting

I am here.

I know I have not been blogging much. I apologize. I guess I do not feel all sunshines and rainbows at this point and I do not want to turn this blog into a poor me daily rant.  SO I keep that to a minimum. I will try to start talking more about things in the next couple of weeks. Maybe start up a new training series once I am on my feet again.

Things in my life are a bit topsy turvy at the moment.

Being injured has left me rendered useless in my book. Well it makes me feel that way.

My leg is healing and I know these things take time. So I am trying to be patient and give it just that, time. I am going to physical therapy, and following doctor orders. They have allowed me to swim and do light rowing without using my legs. So I am taking advantage of that and doing that. I also do some upper body light work and core work with the trx at the ymca. I am lucky I have that.

I am waiting for my pain to be minimal, but it is tough. Some days it feels as if it will never be gone. My foot is still holding blood and black and blue so I have to be patient.

To combine with those issues, I have the other side effects of not running a million miles a week. I get stressed out easier now, and am having a hard time keeping my weight under control. I am currently weighing around 168 pounds and it stresses me out all the more. I know it is just 10 pounds and I can take it off quickly but I would prefer not to have any weight gain at all!

Besides that, it is summer! Hello, it is my favorite time of year, well next to the fall... And I cannot do the things I love like travel and go to the beach. It is discouraging.

I will be ok. I keep repeating this to myself, until I make myself believe it. I added this song to my playlist, and I try to repeat it to myself whenever I need a little boost.

http://youtu.be/bxV-OOIamyk

Fighter. The first time I heard it, I was on the computer doing homework and feeling down. I perked up a little and then listened to it again. The words spoke to me in a way I understood.

I am a fighter. When people think of me, this is what I want them to remember. There goes a fighter. Give them hell.

That is my mission. That is my goal. To all those who have doubted me, who are waiting to see me fail, who are unsupportive of me, I am determined to prove every single one of them wrong. I am determined to give them hell.

For myself, I will keep fighting. I will keep getting up everyday, keep forcing myself through adversity and trying to overcome all the obstacles being thrown at me. I know one thing is for sure:

I am a fighter, and I am still here fighitng every step of the way. (even if it is in a boot) :)