Why I Miss Running

It is painfull obvious to me, that on day 18 of no running, cycling, or even rapid walking, that I miss running terribly.

I look at pictures like this and remember that feeling.

Pure bliss? Satisfaction? Accomplishment? Success? Pride? Joy?
All of the above is more like it.

When I run, I am at peace. Everything, all the shit going on in my life that is terrible or stressful, for the duration of my run it is gone. For the time I am on the streets or the trails my mind is at ease and I am just a runner. There is nothing that comes in between us. It is me, th open road and my music. It is when I do some of my best brainstorming and planning.

But more importantly, it is all mine. My running became my passion. It is the one thing I did entirely selfishly for myself. And as a single mom even, no matter how hard it became to squeeze in, I made time still for running.

Nothing in my life can seem to replace it. I know, it might sound crazy, but at the end of a bad day I do not have much comfort in anything else. Running, it is always there. Running, it became my first and only love for such a long time. And it makes sense to me.

Running is the one area in my life that I can completely control. I train, I work hard and I get the results. I know how to do it, I know what it takes. And it gives me the pure joy and satisfaction without much garbage.

I wish I could tell you I had a solution. But I do not. I have been focusing on other things, like swimming, rowing, and weight lifting. It should be enough, I should be grateful I can do all of those things and belong to a gym that allows it all. But still this nagging feeling of wistfulness comes when I see a runner on the road. When Peanut asks me why we do not go out in her buggy for a run, when I see my running sneakers sitting lonely in the closet. I miss it.

My Comeback Race - The ZOOMA Cape Cod Half Marathon

I refuse to let a silly thing like a torn calf muscle keep me down and depressed :)

I have made some decisions about my fall race scedule and moved back some goals I had set. I was signed up for a 50 mil race in August. Obviously this will have to wait, I will sign up for the November 3rd 50 miler ;)

With that in mind, I knew I wanted a race in early fall to help me get my feet wet and break back into the racing rhythm. Plus, when I am working out, I need a carrot. I need something to look forward to, to keep me going, to stay motivated.

Then, I got an invitation to be one of the ambassador's for the upcoming Half Marathon and 10K at Cape Cod!!!!!

ZOOMA is hosting a half marathon and 10K on Saturday September 22nd, in North Falmouth. Not only is this a fun race, it is a party! ZOOMA was started by 2 incredible women who wanted to create a fun racing atmosphere for women and men. The idea is to get a weekend away and enjoy a fun race with a post race party!

I am looking forward to this event. My heart belongs there at Cape Cod. It was the scene of my first ever half marathon, first 50K Ultra and where I ran my first BQ marathon. Now I will have the chance to once again, do another first, a half marathon post injury. A come back race! I am really looking forward to the experience.

Plus, having a post race after party, and getting jewlery at the finish line??? That sounds like the perfect end to a half marathon for me! Usually I go to races and there is beer. Now for this celiac gal, its a waste of time hehe BUT a glass of wine? I am all in for that!

So I hope all you local runner will join me for a fun race. You can register here. And I will have a discount code soon!! I will update it here when I get it :)