I Am Still Winning

The past few weeks have been a blur.

I am so busy between work, Peanut, and training that I have very little time for much else. I mean I feel like I am constantly running around like a chicken without a head. Without a purpose.

Do you ever get so over whelmed that nothing seems to make sense anymore?

I do.

What do I do to combat it? To stay on track with life?

I remind myself that I am still winning. I remind myself that I can run fast when I want to. I take myself out for a nice run and just enjoy the weather.

I did that today. I went for a run and took some time just listening to my music. I zoned out for a nice hour and it felt good. This is my favorite time of year to run. The leaves are turning beautiful hues of red, orange and yellow. The air. Oh the lovely autumn air it smells crisp and clean. I swear you can smell the leaves dying and falling if you spend enough time outside. The sun warms your skin as the cool air keeps your body cooler while running outside. This is what I live for, to run in the fall.

After a time like that, I feel like no matter what I am still winning.

I am winning because, I have changed my life for the better. I am winning because I wake up with a smile on my face each day. I love who I see when I look in the mirror. I know in my heart, what I am doing is all for the best. I know that the choices I have made in the last 3 years have left me without regret, and have made me stronger. I also know that no matter what, I have love in my eyes when I gaze at my daughter. She changed my life and was the catalyst for me getting healthy and fit. And now I know that I have to stay strong to support her and be a good example for her.

When things get really tough, I remind myself of all that I have been through. I remind myself of all those who thought I would never get to where I am today. I think about those who have put me down in the past again and again. I think about how determined I am to prove every single one of them wrong. I smile when I run because many said I never could or would. I smile when I succeed because I know that it is through my hard work and dedication that have allowed me to get to where I am.

My friend sent me that and it made sense to me.

I am strong. I have often said I am a fighter. I will keep fighting. Yes I am still winning and being strong is helping me to keep winning. I know that no matter where my road may twist and turn onto and around, that I am strong and I will always take the road that keeps me true to myself and what my heart says.