A few short weeks ago, 7 to be exact, I thought things were dismal and grim. I was on crutches in a full leg splint and in miserable pain. I tore my calf and I felt like my world was ending. I went into a boot and still felt terrible. I hobbled around and just sunk into a depression.
It was hard.
Running had really become my life for the last year. I spent it doing long runs weekend after weekend and always training for a race. So when I was told I had to stop it was like my life was cut out from within me. That fire and passion it fizzled for a few days.
I started brain storming and then found other ways to exercise. You see, I never give up. I cannot. I will not. My injury forced me to do something I had never done before, face my biggest fear, gaining all of my weight back and being a failure.
At the heart of my life has always been becoming a failure. I thought being injured would make me be that. And I did not realize it at the time but in fact, my injury did a good thing for me.
It made me realize that there are many other forms of exercise other than running and more than racing marathons and road races period.
In fact, there is a whole new world waiting for me to explore it, and this is the world of traithlons!!!
I would never, ever, have even considered getting into them before because I was terrified of the swimming portion. I got over my fears of swimming thanks to the torn calf. You see, when you are addicted to cardio and the only form of it you can do for 4 weeks is swim, you kind of get tossed into it if you do not want to sit home on your ass bored and feeling miserable.
I know they say everything happens for a reason. I know because many people told me this. I just did not see it at the time I was injured. I did not appreciate the opportunity it gave me to learn about my body and what it is capable of.
So, I am taking this moment today to say thank you. Thank you to everyone who has stuck by me during my crazy, raging, depressing injured ridden days. I promise I will be stronger for this journey and I do appreciate the support.
5 comments:
Wow...you know what's funny... I actually told myself - before you even had the injury - that you'd end up moving from marathons to triathlons!! How cool is that?
As I've watched you transform and grow stronger, I've always thought of you as a warrior..someone who will continue to push yourself, challenge yourself.
Even watching and reading the sad posts, I knew you would pull through with some way of using it as a tool to help motivate you more.
You never cease to amaze me with your strength and passion. It's who you are now - and that will NEVER disappear.
That is great stuff! You are so going to kick a££ in triathlons :)
You are so INSPIRING!
Here I am taking a break from running because of SHin Splints and complaining my butt off, when you are so much more determined and suffering from far worse!!
THANKS FOR THE INSPIRATION
it was much needed.
xoxo
Dani
www.thatfitnesschic.blogspot.com
Colleen, you are deeply loved by many, especially God!
I'm not even sure that a torn calf would get me into a pool. You are awesome!
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