I Am Still Fighting

I am here.

I know I have not been blogging much. I apologize. I guess I do not feel all sunshines and rainbows at this point and I do not want to turn this blog into a poor me daily rant.  SO I keep that to a minimum. I will try to start talking more about things in the next couple of weeks. Maybe start up a new training series once I am on my feet again.

Things in my life are a bit topsy turvy at the moment.

Being injured has left me rendered useless in my book. Well it makes me feel that way.

My leg is healing and I know these things take time. So I am trying to be patient and give it just that, time. I am going to physical therapy, and following doctor orders. They have allowed me to swim and do light rowing without using my legs. So I am taking advantage of that and doing that. I also do some upper body light work and core work with the trx at the ymca. I am lucky I have that.

I am waiting for my pain to be minimal, but it is tough. Some days it feels as if it will never be gone. My foot is still holding blood and black and blue so I have to be patient.

To combine with those issues, I have the other side effects of not running a million miles a week. I get stressed out easier now, and am having a hard time keeping my weight under control. I am currently weighing around 168 pounds and it stresses me out all the more. I know it is just 10 pounds and I can take it off quickly but I would prefer not to have any weight gain at all!

Besides that, it is summer! Hello, it is my favorite time of year, well next to the fall... And I cannot do the things I love like travel and go to the beach. It is discouraging.

I will be ok. I keep repeating this to myself, until I make myself believe it. I added this song to my playlist, and I try to repeat it to myself whenever I need a little boost.

http://youtu.be/bxV-OOIamyk

Fighter. The first time I heard it, I was on the computer doing homework and feeling down. I perked up a little and then listened to it again. The words spoke to me in a way I understood.

I am a fighter. When people think of me, this is what I want them to remember. There goes a fighter. Give them hell.

That is my mission. That is my goal. To all those who have doubted me, who are waiting to see me fail, who are unsupportive of me, I am determined to prove every single one of them wrong. I am determined to give them hell.

For myself, I will keep fighting. I will keep getting up everyday, keep forcing myself through adversity and trying to overcome all the obstacles being thrown at me. I know one thing is for sure:

I am a fighter, and I am still here fighitng every step of the way. (even if it is in a boot) :)