The thing about life is, it moves forward. With or without you it keeps going.
I have had some set backs the past few months, in my relationships personally, in my running with an injury, and now losing the chance to run "one of the most prestigious races in the world". Yea all that.
It brought me some tears, it has brought inevitable heartache and heartbreak. Those are feelings I have been used to my whole life. Those are feelings I experienced a lot when I was almost 300 pounds.
But life, it shows us no mercy sometimes, however, it is all a process. And one I am working through. I have cried a lot the past week, there have been days I did not want to get out of bed, I have been there. Thanks to my friends, family, and my virtual community I have had support. And I appreciate it. I am working through it all slowly.
SO I am here.
And there is one tiny person, who inevitably keeps me moving forward, she requires me to get out of bed every single day. She requires me to be there, with a smile and take care of her.
My Peanut, she forces me forward. She always has.
I am grateful to her, for her life, it has been a gift. She has been a gift from God, of that I am certain because every single day she keeps me moving forward. No matter what her smile warms my heart and no matter what else in my world comes crashing down I know that at the end of the day I will always be her Mama and she will be my Peanut.
4 comments:
kids can be fantastic motivators, that is for sure!
i have days when i want to 'quit'. when i'm fed up with the struggles and wonder why do i keep banging my head against the wall. Then my little man-cub will spontaneously hug my leg or jump off of the couch onto my back (or head) and just start to tickle me.
It is in those times that i realize that i CANNOT quit. Not just because i do what i do so that he has what he has, but also so that he doesn't see me quit. he will learn, hopefully, by seeing me persevere even when times get tough we need to stick with our goals. Move forward.
Always forward.
Relentlessly.
Peanut alone is enough to keep you motivated and moving. Stay strong to show her what a strong woman can be!
With all that you have accomplished I look forward to seeing what you do next! xoxoxo and hugs to your peanut :-)Mine is all grown up now but he still keeps me going. If you get a chance, stop by my blog today to read Part 9 of How a Pork Tenderloin Saved My Life - I actually thought of you as I was writing it and your disappointment. Keep on that yellow brick road! Although it twists and turns, it inevitably leads to Oz :-)
yep. it's my little who keeps me moving forward too.
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