Oh Yes. That motion thing...
The thing about life is, it moves forward. With or without you it keeps going.
I have had some set backs the past few months, in my relationships personally, in my running with an injury, and now losing the chance to run "one of the most prestigious races in the world". Yea all that.
It brought me some tears, it has brought inevitable heartache and heartbreak. Those are feelings I have been used to my whole life. Those are feelings I experienced a lot when I was almost 300 pounds.
But life, it shows us no mercy sometimes, however, it is all a process. And one I am working through. I have cried a lot the past week, there have been days I did not want to get out of bed, I have been there. Thanks to my friends, family, and my virtual community I have had support. And I appreciate it. I am working through it all slowly.
SO I am here.
And there is one tiny person, who inevitably keeps me moving forward, she requires me to get out of bed every single day. She requires me to be there, with a smile and take care of her.
My Peanut, she forces me forward. She always has.
I am grateful to her, for her life, it has been a gift. She has been a gift from God, of that I am certain because every single day she keeps me moving forward. No matter what her smile warms my heart and no matter what else in my world comes crashing down I know that at the end of the day I will always be her Mama and she will be my Peanut.