I miss it sometimes, but I know that in order for me to reach my goals I must let things go and it is the least important in the grand scheme of my life.
The one thing I do miss about it is writing. Talking about my thoughts and feelings in a place that is all my own is something I miss a lot. And man do I have lots of those lately. I never imagined that losing weight would change so much about me and about my life in general. It has forced me to deal with other things that I left dormant for quite some time. It has forced me to reevaluate things in my life that were not making sense.
I have good days and bad days. Some days it is easy to see why I am on this path and how it is the best choice for me. Other days I feel lost. I feel like I am living someone else's life or sometimes worse, that this is all a dream and I will wake up back in the miserable cave I lived in a few years ago.
But at the end of the day the one thing that matters is that, I am happy and I am moving in a forward direction. I believe that everything happens for a reason and even if we do not see what the reason is at the moment eventually we will know why. I do believe that if God closes a door he always opens a window.
3 comments:
I am a big believer in blogging it out - sometimes just getting those thoughts, emotions, feelings, "things" out of your head and onto the page makes things so much more clear. Hang in there my friend. You are so strong.
I love writing as I find it really cathartic, but it sounds like you are keeping it all together without the need for constant debriefing, so well done!
I like this post. Trying to keep balance in life is daunting at best. Hopefully you keep with writing. I just started reading your blog, and I enjoy it; you are quite inspiring.
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