I have not been here as much as I would like to be. My life has changed a lot these last 2 months and I am trying to get into a new system and rhythm of things. Balancing work, single mommy hood, school, running and living have proven to be a bit of a challenge and honestly blogging and social media in general has had to take a back seat.
I miss it sometimes, but I know that in order for me to reach my goals I must let things go and it is the least important in the grand scheme of my life.
The one thing I do miss about it is writing. Talking about my thoughts and feelings in a place that is all my own is something I miss a lot. And man do I have lots of those lately. I never imagined that losing weight would change so much about me and about my life in general. It has forced me to deal with other things that I left dormant for quite some time. It has forced me to reevaluate things in my life that were not making sense.
I have good days and bad days. Some days it is easy to see why I am on this path and how it is the best choice for me. Other days I feel lost. I feel like I am living someone else's life or sometimes worse, that this is all a dream and I will wake up back in the miserable cave I lived in a few years ago.
But at the end of the day the one thing that matters is that, I am happy and I am moving in a forward direction. I believe that everything happens for a reason and even if we do not see what the reason is at the moment eventually we will know why. I do believe that if God closes a door he always opens a window.