Tomorrow will be a better day.
This month has been trying, and as you know if you read everything is changing in my life. BUT, I was at the gym on Thursday night and I killed my 5k treadmill run, finished it up in 21:12. Then I headed down stairs to TRX class and felt great for that too. In fact, so great that I ran another mile before I went home.
I often say running is my therapy but really I realized working out is the therapy. I realized that I am a warrior and I am strong. I used to be weak but these past 2 years I have only gotten stronger and stronger. And last night I looked in the mirror at the gym and it was then I saw this strong woman who stands up every single day. I carved her out from her old body, I molded her into this. I felt her last night. I knew that no matter what happens she will be there.
Not sure if any of it makes sense, but it does in my head ;)
Yes I am sad. Yes I am having a hard time getting through everything going on in my life right now and saying goodbye. But I still am physically strong and I can use that to get me through the parts where I need to be mentally strong as well.
And I have to remember that as hard as each day will be, I can count on the fact that tomorrow will be a little bit easier and a little bit brighter. I know in fact tomorrow will be better because for the first time in my entire life I will be stepping outside to run the longest I have ever attempted to run. I will be running my first 50K :)
I cannot wait :)
13 comments:
You are a very strong person. I know running for me helps me think though everyday stuff. While I am running it is a good time to process what I need to do today or the week.
Best of luck to you tomorrow! I've been reading your posts on my google reader on my iphone for months, but I never comment cuz it's a PIA on a phone! Anyway, today deserved a comment. I'm sorry for what you and D are going through. And I hope you have a wonderful time tomorrow and kick ass! Hugs
I still can't believe that you are craz...err...brave enough to do a 50k. : )
You are going to do awesome tomorrow. I can't wait to read the race report!
You epitomize strength! I'll be rooting you on BIG TIME tomorrow!! 50k- holy crap!
Kill it tomorrow.
Along with that, kill your demons.
They have no place in your life right now Colleen. You are doing only things that are right for you and in the end right for all those around you.
Have fun. Run strong. Maybe shed a few tears along the way...
Love, love, love you.
So jealous of your ultra tomorrow! Kill it!!
You. Are. Amazing!!!! Enjoy every moment of your 50k and keep your head held high, because you are so so so strong. Can't wait to read/hear about how tomorrow goes.
Holy crud! I didn't know there was such a thing! You are so inspirational!!!!
Finish Strong Colleen!
Have a great race, Colleen! Go work off some of that stress on the road.
I see from your post that you DID kill that race, congrats! I'd never heard of a 50K, I'm just now working my way up from a 5K to a 10K after losing 95 pounds. BTW, I am very envious of your arms, they are rocking!
Good luck! Can't wait to hear the race report!
so so so PROUD of you.
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