Friday, January 27, 2012
Tomorrow will be a better day.
This month has been trying, and as you know if you read everything is changing in my life. BUT, I was at the gym on Thursday night and I killed my 5k treadmill run, finished it up in 21:12. Then I headed down stairs to TRX class and felt great for that too. In fact, so great that I ran another mile before I went home.
I often say running is my therapy but really I realized working out is the therapy. I realized that I am a warrior and I am strong. I used to be weak but these past 2 years I have only gotten stronger and stronger. And last night I looked in the mirror at the gym and it was then I saw this strong woman who stands up every single day. I carved her out from her old body, I molded her into this. I felt her last night. I knew that no matter what happens she will be there.
Not sure if any of it makes sense, but it does in my head ;)
Yes I am sad. Yes I am having a hard time getting through everything going on in my life right now and saying goodbye. But I still am physically strong and I can use that to get me through the parts where I need to be mentally strong as well.
And I have to remember that as hard as each day will be, I can count on the fact that tomorrow will be a little bit easier and a little bit brighter. I know in fact tomorrow will be better because for the first time in my entire life I will be stepping outside to run the longest I have ever attempted to run. I will be running my first 50K :)
I cannot wait :)