I missed weigh in last week because I got caught up in work and things so this week would make it 2 weeks since weigh in. I was worried because well I like weighing in weekly and I weighed at home in the morning and I was hovering around 159. I was upset. But my scale at home must be wrong because when I stepped onto the scale at Weight Watchers I got a different story:
The receptionist said, wow you lost 5.2 pounds over the holidays? And she looked up at me, I paused and my mouth must have been hanging wide open because I was speechless for a minute. Then I said, wait a minute what is my current weight then? I was too excited to be able to calculate it... She said well 155 pounds. I said really?!? She said yes why, I said well that is GOAL WEIGHT!!!! I must have shouted because the woman behind me said wow congrats, where is the bells going off? hehehe I did not care at that point. Not only did I hit goal weight I passed it with 2 more pounds!!!!!!!!
I was too busy staring at the tiny sticker. That little sticker there that read a weight I did not envision many months ago when I signed up for Weight Watchers.
She was not really enthusiastic, maybe she did not realize how big of an event it was for me, not sure but anyways. She fished through the draw saying to the other receptionist, what do we give them for lifetime.... I got my star charm and she wrote in my book. Then I walked away.
I began to feel jumpy and excited but her reaction was so quiet that I began to wonder what the big deal was. But thankfully the leader mentioned something and I just blurted it out, I hit LIFETIME goal weight :) then the whole room was clapping and they tried to make me stand up and give a speech. I was like no no lets wait till I hit my 6 weeks :)
I felt amazing. I still feel it now hours later as I sit here. I wanted to cry I was so happy at that moment it all was clear to me, what I had wished for for so very long my dream to get healthy and fit was finally true. I thought about that girl who was lost and hopeless 2 years ago, sitting alone in her closet crying because nothing fit anymore. That sad sullen girl who hated the world she lived in.
I thought for a long time about that girl today, I thought about her life she led for so long. Over 10 years she had lived in a prison of bad attitudes, binge eating, insecurity and loneliness. I cried for her again today and I looked at my life now. I remembered how hopeless I was. I remembered how I felt so ugly and disgusting. I had no idea that this world existed. I literally was walking around in an empty shell. I thought about how alive I felt today and I thanked God for giving me this chance to save my life.
After my Weight Watchers meeting I headed to my favorite place to train:
Yes the track. My training plan called for 10 miles today with 5 1000m repeats at 5K pace! I was more than happy to take my energetic lifetime earning self to that track today!!! I cruised around the first mile around 8 and then did 5 repeats each around the 6:00 pace!!!! If hitting lifetime felt great this felt amazing too!!!! Not only have I lost weight but in the process I have become a runner. Today on that track I felt like an athlete. A runner chasing that bq time qualification.
After the track I headed to my thinking place and had some time to gather my thoughts.
Then it was time to celebrate! I went to Sephora on the way home and got myself a tiny celebration gift :) I felt like I earned it hehe
After that it was to pick up my Peanut and cuddle her up!
Oh and we added our new charm to our collection :)
All I am missing now is my golden key which I will get in 6 weeks!!!!! February 22nd I will weight in at goal weight and earn my official Lifetime member status!!! This means free Weight Watchers meetings forever and a whole ton of great support to maintain all the work I have put in!
I am living proof like so many others than when you dream, your dreams do come true. I have worked my ass off for the last 2 years exercising and eating healthy and it has all paid off in ways I never imagined possible. I wake up with a smile everyday that comes naturally. I am living my life the way I was meant to. Happy and healthy. All 7 medications I used daily when I was obese are gone. All the tears that come now are from joy and a divine gratitude for my life that is just beginning :)