Well yes I ran a marathon. Everyone keeps reminding me ;) And believe me I am grateful for my running thus far and I appreciate how far I have come this past year.
But I am not talking about my running today. Today my friends I am talking about Weight Watchers and why I so clearly need to follow the plan in my life. I knew I had packed on a few extra pounds. That is the thing, when you hit your goal weight you feel great, clothes feel great and you get used to the new body you are living in. But I settled in and then the past 2 months I let old habits come back in too.
I have no one to blame but myself. I am not going to sit here and say oh I was training hard, oh I have been doing xyz I do not get it. No I get it, I have been lazy with my habits. I stopped weighing my meat and portions and guesstimating things. I would track most days and skip days and not worry about it. I would have extra things I normally would not allow myself here and there and tell myself 'I will run it off tomorrow'. But see when you are doing xyz it adds up to a few extra pounds over time.
So that is why I walked into a Weight Watchers meeting yesterday and faced the ever truthful Scale. I know some hate it, I know some say throw it away go by how you feel. But if you really think about it, the scale does not lie. I wonder sometimes if this is why we hate it so much. If you put on a few extra pounds you may not feel it at first. But I bet if you pack on an extra 10 you notice it in your clothes. The scale tells the truth. I hate the scale when I have gained, but I love it when I have lost. So I must say, the scale is a part of my life, one I need and will use as a tool to keep me in check. To keep me grounded.
So I met the scale yesterday with a heavy heart. I gained 8 pounds since my physical and deciding on a goal weight with my doctor 2 months ago... Now I weigh 165 pounds. I know it may not sound like a lot, but to a girl who has lost so much it feels like it. I start to think about how hard it was to lose 120 pounds and I cringe. I know I will never allow myself to fall that far behind ever again. It is simply too much work to get back here. But I also know that I am not happy at this 165 either. I feel it in my clothes, they are snug. I see it in my face.
So I am saying enough is enough. I am claiming my healthy habits back and getting back to basics right now. I refuse to let this slip to a 10, 20 30 pound gain. I refuse to go back there. I will not. That is why I am participating in the Back 2 Basics Challenge with all my friends this month! Check it out and come join us if you want ;) And if you are feeling especially inspired and motivated you can do 2 challenges this month 30 for 60 is going on here!
How do you handle setbacks on your journey?