So you train hard for 5 months.
You eat, breathe, sleep, dream of the big event. It arrives and whisks you into its greatness and for a whole day you become the very person you dreamt about all those nights. A marathoner.
You wear that medal with pride around for days, you rock that jacket. You even wear the tech shirt to thanksgiving day dinner:
But seriously what happens when all the 'I became a marathoner' stuff ends....
I spent a lot of time wondering about that this weekend. I spent a lot of time debating on what obstacle to tackle next. You see my fear is this, I feel myself wanting to relax. I feel my eating habits want to slip into unfogivable territory. I can feel my body getting a little lazy. I know I know, its only been 1 week I need to recover and blah blah blah ;)
But this is my way. My journey, My life. I know what happens when I slack off, I get lazy, I eat more, and I will gain weight. It is just the way I am right now. I would like to say in the future I will be ok, would like to tell you I have been healed. But the truth is, that girl that weighed 272 pounds and was addicted to food is still here. She is just in this marathoners body.
I am determined to keep that girl away for the rest of this girl's life. To do this successfully right now, I need a race. I need a goal, I need a light at the end of the tunnel.
So I found 2 so far :)
I am signed up to run a 5K on December 11 here. There is tons of fellow bloggers, twitter pals, and real friends going so I am super excited!
And the other thing? I will run my first 50K!!!!!!!!!!! It is down the cape, as we say ;) The Frozen Fat Ass, best race name ever? I think maybe hehe
SO there you have it. I will run a 5k and enjoy it and then in 2 months I hope to finish my first ultra marathon a 50k which is roughly 31 miles :)
Do you have any races planned for the winter? Do you find yourself needing a race to have a reason to train and stay on the healthy wagon?
You eat, breathe, sleep, dream of the big event. It arrives and whisks you into its greatness and for a whole day you become the very person you dreamt about all those nights. A marathoner.
You wear that medal with pride around for days, you rock that jacket. You even wear the tech shirt to thanksgiving day dinner:
But seriously what happens when all the 'I became a marathoner' stuff ends....
I spent a lot of time wondering about that this weekend. I spent a lot of time debating on what obstacle to tackle next. You see my fear is this, I feel myself wanting to relax. I feel my eating habits want to slip into unfogivable territory. I can feel my body getting a little lazy. I know I know, its only been 1 week I need to recover and blah blah blah ;)
But this is my way. My journey, My life. I know what happens when I slack off, I get lazy, I eat more, and I will gain weight. It is just the way I am right now. I would like to say in the future I will be ok, would like to tell you I have been healed. But the truth is, that girl that weighed 272 pounds and was addicted to food is still here. She is just in this marathoners body.
I am determined to keep that girl away for the rest of this girl's life. To do this successfully right now, I need a race. I need a goal, I need a light at the end of the tunnel.
So I found 2 so far :)
I am signed up to run a 5K on December 11 here. There is tons of fellow bloggers, twitter pals, and real friends going so I am super excited!
And the other thing? I will run my first 50K!!!!!!!!!!! It is down the cape, as we say ;) The Frozen Fat Ass, best race name ever? I think maybe hehe
SO there you have it. I will run a 5k and enjoy it and then in 2 months I hope to finish my first ultra marathon a 50k which is roughly 31 miles :)
Do you have any races planned for the winter? Do you find yourself needing a race to have a reason to train and stay on the healthy wagon?
10 comments:
You are amazing. an ultra?? incredible!!
Congrats on your first marathon. I do the same thing last year after my first marathon, all I wanted to do was a whole lot of nothing. THan the weather turned cold and I had a very hard time wanting to get out in the cold and run. I put some weight back on. Not this year after my second marathon I new I wanted to go into winter differently than last year. I picked up a new running partner and she will run in the cold. I am keeping the weight off so far. Plus I am staying motivated by doing one race every month. Plus I am thinking about signing up for a marathon in march with a several other girls that are running that marathon. So I am glad you got a plan because it is so easy to do nothing and go back to bad habits. You are amazing and have come a long ways. You inspire others with your story.
You are truly an inspiration, mama. I am in awe of you and your drive. I can totally relate to your addiction to food. I don't ever want to be that person again. It's what keeps me moving forward.
I understand the fear of going back to the way you were before, but rationally you know that will NOT happen. Even if you don't exercise for a week and eat whatever you want, you know now that you will get back on track. A few days of over-indulging and not working out does not mean you have completely reverted. I do like your goals, though!
Wow, an ultra?! That's amazing!
I totally get the fear of following into old habits. I think that is why I continue to sign up for more races. Can't wait to run with you to hear all about your 50k plans!
This is the first time out of three marathons that I haven't been injured after. I have this nagging feeling to do another marathon in the spring or something bigger, but then I think about wanting to PR in the half marathon, something that is special to me. Awesome job setting your sights on the 50k - it'll keep you rolling this winter!
Congrats on your marathon! You just stated all of my fears. That is exactly why tapering scares me and why after I do my first marathon in May 2012 I know my trainer is going to take it easy on me for the next week or so. It scares the bejesus out of me. I am exactly like you. I was once 275 lbs. I'm still that girl, addicted to food, just in a triathlete/runners body. Sadly, we don't have too many winter races here in Utah because of how cold it is, so I'm going to have to start saving my money so I can travel to warmer states to do runs in the winter.
Thanks for this post. I'm so glad to know there are other people out there that are going through the same thing as me.
Yayyyy for December 11th 5k!! sooooo excited :) :)
I'm considering doing that 5K as well since it's in my neighborhood :) And I understand the fears of slacking, especially since I just ran my first half-marathon.
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