Saturday, October 30, 2010
Yep I did it, and you know what I really could not believe I was doing it as I was doing it haha I had to take a picture to share with you because I was so very excited :
I was a hot sweaty mess, I did not think you needed to see that hehe but I just felt awesome. I headed to the gym this afternoon feeling tired achy and just so not motivated. Its been a long week I had to work 6 days and study and blah blah so I just wanted to honestly be napping. But I reminded myself to just suck it up and get there and I knew once I was there I would be feeling better. I was right! I got on the treadmill and started at 9.5 min mile and just worked on that for 1.5 miles, then I increased it to 9 min per mile for another mile. Then I said well I know we can do 8.5 since we did it at our last 5K. And I stayed at that pace for the rest of the 5 miles :)
After the run I got on the elliptical for 15 minutes and did a mile to cool down. It felt amazing just to be able to accomplish something I never imagined I would be doing last year! I know I will keep running because I have come to enjoy it so much. I want to be running 10Ks by the springtime and I feel I can do it!
After all this I came home and did Shred it With Weights. I know I am crazy right? But I did not get much of a workout in yesterday and Thursday was only a 1.5 mile run and Shred it With Weights, so I knew today I wanted to get a good long workout in and I certainly did!
After the workout I was no longer tired and feeling blah that's for sure! I was in total bliss when I hit stop on my Polar Monitor and saw this:
Friday, October 29, 2010
Well here I am again you lucky bloggers have gotten to meet me via video twice in a day thanks to the lovely sisterhood hehe
If you have not been by this great site you are missing out! And many of you have asked about Shrinkvivor and when the next competition is...... Well get to the hood now because it will be in 2 weeks! And there is a virtual 5K coming up which you definitely do not want to miss!!!
No really this is the final step in the Shrinkvivor challenge!!!!! So please cast your vote for me I would really really with honey on top appreciate it :)
Cast your vote for me here :http://shrinkingjeans.net/2010/10/the-top-7-links-to-vlogsblogs-and-voting/
Thank you everyone!
So I am a woman on a mission! I would love love to win tickets to fitbloggin 2011. I could type all about it and why I want to go but.....................
The sisterhood is giving away a ticket and I want to win it! So I have done as they requested and made a vlog. My first one ever to be exact and I feel all awkward posting it as you can probably tell....And please everyone if you have not gotten signed up and into this website the Shrinking Jeans then you are missing out! They are so inspirational I look forward to their daily emails and tips and of course contests!!!! There is another one coming up in 2 weeks so be ready! And a virtual 5K which I cannot wait for :) So get on it if you aren't already you are missing out!
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
This has been a long journey and I honestly still sit here sometimes and just do not really believe it. I look at my little weight watchers journal in disbelief and awe. It has been 8 full grueling months, it still feels like yesterday I was staring at the large image in front of me and crying because I was so out of touch with myself. I literally hated myself and had for years. I literally did not even imagine this fit self hiding there under the fat and unhealthiness. I never ever in all of my fat days ever imagined I would see this day.
This glorious day it is finally here. I know it is not the end, for me it feels like a new beginning. I truly do not even feel like the same girl that walked into that meeting 8 months ago. I hold my head higher when I walk and I look forward to daily things. It is not all because of the weight loss, for me this has been an emotional journey as well.
I have learned to love myself and my body for what it is, a power house capable of anything. My body can do things I always said impossible like run, lift weights and do it with joy! I have learned that I do not need food to make me happy or even to celebrate or comfort me when I am depressed. I now sense the urges to binge and chase them away with exercise. It has been harder to mentally change than it is to physically change. This is something I will always keep in my mind. Your body will change if you eat less, work out, and take care of it, but your mind it needs to change as well. If you do not work on that then the hard work will be futile in the end. It has been about changing my entire relationship with food and it has been hard but I am determined to do it.
And I am starting to realize that it is OK to have a big main goal because I will make it. So I will work on making it very soon in the next few weeks and be sure to share with everyone. For now I am looking towards getting my BMI to just over weight. My BMI was at 42 and now it is finally at 30!! By the time I reach 75lbs lost then it should be 29 and just over weight. According to the BMI standards a healthy weight range for me is between 114-144lbs. Right now I am still considered obese by the BMI standards.
So here is the lovely little sticker I cannot stop staring at :)
Monday, October 25, 2010
Sunday, October 24, 2010
Well this morning I decided I would get on the treadmill and just run as long as I could. I set the time for 45 minutes thinking with ambition that I would make it to at least 35. I started walking for 2 minutes to warm up and then set a brisk pace of 9 minutes a mile. I hoped to at least get 3.5 - 4 miles in. I noticed when I did my last 5k that I felt I could keep going after it was over. So I figured hey why not see how far I can go this morning?
I got my answer when the treadmill kept going and my body did too! I managed to keep running on the treadmill today for 4.75 miles in 45 minutes!!! I was quite happy with myself after I realized how far I had come. When the treadmill slowed down to a cool down. I guess this means I will be running a 10K sooner than I thought :)
I noticed that after the 3rd mile my heart rate increased to 170 and stayed steady there. This is good because my optimal calorie burning is supposedly between the 160s so I was happy I pushed it higher and was even more excited when I saw i burned 541 calories with that run! Lately my runs of 3 miles have only burned 300-350 calories. Not bad but still I like to be in the 500s at least :)
Tonight before bed I will shred it with weights and use my 15lb kettle bell. I wish I had purchased the adjustable one now but maybe in the future I will. The 15lb one used to be so hard but now I have noticed it is getting easier.
The Shrinkvivor challenge this week was miles and so far I got 4 miles in Thursday, 3 miles in Friday and 3 miles in Saturday. Now 4 more today brings my total up to 14. My goal is 25 so I need to push for 5 miles Monday and Tuesday!
My main thought for the end of this week that has been on my mind is how do you stay motivated even when others around you are not?
My main reason for wondering this is because I know some of us have great support teams behind us but I know some of us also do not. I feel like I do at times and then at other times I do not. I live in a house where someone else living here does not have a weight issue. He likes his cake, chips, M & Ms and fried foods. I love cooking for him but at times it gets exhausting making two dinners every night, mine filled with vegetables and lean protein and his with nothing green and extra butter. It is kind of comical the way we eat so differently.
At times I get frustrated and I feel its not "fair" that I have to count calories or my points and read every label and weigh and measure my food. But then again I remind myself I do have an issue and I do need to keep doing what I am doing.
But it is not the food that gets to me, lately I don't even crave junk which is nice. Lately the problem in our house seems to be my workouts. It is time consuming I understand that, but they are necessary for me to be successful and it is hard sometimes. Lately when I come home and get into my workout gear and get ready to head to the gym I get the guilt trip from the family. I get the why do you always have to go? You worked out yesterday, why do you have to go again? Then I go anyways and get the silent treatment when I come home... I have gotten used to it but my question is how to stay motivated? Honestly the more this happens at times I get discouraged and feel like I should not go as much.
So when your partner is not as supportive of your journey how do you over come this?
So far I have done OK. I have tried to explain it as best as I could but I just focus on the bigger picture. I keep working out and eating the healthier things because at the end of the day it makes me feel good. I feel so much better looking in the mirror and seeing a happy healthier woman. I am stronger because of this journey and I have learned that you really do not need anyone else but yourself to be accountable. If you start making it about or for someone else you may not be as successful.