So the lovely ladies at the Sisterhood always have this True Confessions Tuesday and I usually (thankfully) do not have much to confess.....
However unfortunately this week that is not the case =(
I am working on opening a new store for work and although this is no excuse I just have been eating more this week. I am not sure why or really I have no excuse other than I am over tired and extra stressed and I have been munching more than usual. I already ate all my flew points this week and it is only Tuesday so I must weigh in tomorrow and I am truly dreading it.
I got in 4 workouts and I will run tomorrow morning. I have been keeping up with those. So I am at least staying on track where my fitness is concerned.
The problem is the damn eating. I felt like an alcoholic this week. There were peanut M&Ms in the house and I just could not stop munching on them. For me sugar is like a drug and it seems once it is in my body I just keep craving it.This makes me upset it makes me mad, it makes me feel like I will never be able to enjoy things without having this stigma of craving it for days after wards. So I ate a serving of the freaking stupid things everyday both days this weekend. It is just not something I am proud of but I would not be honest if I did not share my downfalls with you all too.
I also have been eating over my daily points allowance. Again not something I am proud of but it is what it is. My days have been starting earlier at 530am and do not end until 9-10pm at night. So breakfast is at 6am and I am just hungry throughout the day, I end up eating all my snacks and lunch by the time 3pm rolls around. This messes me up because I have a 5pm snack and do not have dinner until 7-8pm and by then I only have 3-4 points left and I end up eating more like 7-8. SO I have been eating more chicken and I had pop chips, things like that. I am not happy about it but I am glad I am still eating healthy foods and not binging on junk.
The old me would have been throwing it all out the window with all this stress and being over worked. I am bringing a lunch everyday to work still and eating my Lazy Pumpkin Oatmeal for breakfast and things like that. It is just I am eating too much and by the end of the day I am out of points and frustrated.
So what can I do, I am publicly admitting I have made mistakes this week and I am recognizing that I do not have it all figured out. I realize I still have food issues and I need to be more careful when making choices. I need to be more militant when it comes to snacking and cut back even if it is healthy like a banana.
I know tomorrow will not be a good weigh in and for me I must accept it and not get discouraged and move on.
I know I will have help getting through it though because the Sisterhood has a new challenge coming up and it starts tomorrow! I cannot wait =)