Well I did not want to go to Weight Watchers this evening after work. I am going to be completely honest I just have been having a crazy busy week this week and although I am staying on track with my points and tracking, I did not get to work out hardcore like I have in the past weeks. I worked out Sun, Mon, and Tues, missed Saturday and today. Unusual for me lol. I guess I am just hard on myself.
So with a heavy heart and feeling heavier than usual I went in and stepped on the dreaded scale. I figured up a little, I figured I would not be cheering, but alas I was proven wrong again!
Yup down 1.4 more pounds! I am teetering on being in Onederland!!!! I have mixed emotions about this though.
One side of me is all for it, getting ramped up and excited. The other side of me is nervous, feeling like I can fail at any moment and get all hyped up only to be let down. I know this is foolish and I should be determined and focused, but I honestly am just nervous at this point. I think I am just focusing too much on the scale and not on the non scale victories. It is just hard to NOT focus on the scale with these big milestones in place all back to back lol.
So you know me I am a planner and whats my plan?
Honestly I just plan to get to the basics this week and keep my scale on the counter in the kitchen and literally weigh and measure everything. I am determined to succeed and drop this weight for good.
I have been thinking too about all the things I want to do when I reach goal. Lol I keep picturing myself throwing this fat suit off of me and off a bridge weighing the amount I lost. It is just a mental picture for me now of how I feel every time I feel like I am going to fail. I picture 51 pounds and think damn that's a ton of weight you threw it away do not even think about picking it back up!
Also to help keep me on track with my workouts I have joined the September Success Challenge here at Healthy Loser Gal.
So Check it out and join if you want!
Looking forward to hopefully being officially in onederland next week! :)