So lately I notice people are beginning to notice the change in me. And it is not just the obvious physical change, it has been an emotional journey as well and one I know I am only just beginning. So many people stop me and say wow you look so different what is your secret. How are you losing all this weight?
Every time I tell them the same response: weight watchers and working out. It really is the combination of the 2 that has allowed me to become so successful and motivated. People do not believe me when I tell them how much I workout. And honestly sometimes I find myself not believing it either. A year ago if you had asked me if I ever would weigh 209 I would have cried and probably said no way. It was hard really hard. I look at my pictures of myself and cringe. I really cannot believe I was that huge disgusting mess. And its sad but that is all I see when I look at those pictures. I feel like I do not even know that person.
So I did it one day when I woke up in that body and said that's it enough is enough. I knew especially after I had my daughter that I wanted to be healthy and be around for her. And I do it is true she has really been my main motivator. It really hits home for me when I look at my father as well. He is obese and i know that if I do not make this change and fully commit to it and stick with it that I may end up like him and this is my biggest fear.
I have already come so far but sometimes I feel like wow I have a really long way to go still. I joined Weight Watchers on Feb. 24th 2010 and now 5 months later I am down about 43lbs and 2 dress sizes. I want to keep going I want to become a lifetime member but it looks so far away! I have ups and downs. Some days I feel like I can tackle anything and that I am on top of things and in control of my diet. Other days I feel like I am still that fat girl and I should not bother continuing because I cant ever get to goal. So on those days I say ok have your day tomorrow the Fit B is coming out and you will be running 2 miles!
I think the main point to my ramble is this: decide that today will be the last day you will be making excuses for yourself. Make today the day you commit to making your lifestyle change whatever it may be and stick to it. Know that there will be ups and downs and you will make mistakes but the important thing is to get up the very next day and be better. If you tell yourself you are on a diet then it means something short term, something you will be tempted to cheat on, to me diet means depriving myself. A life style change means long term commitment to taking over your life and weight.