Saturday, August 28, 2010
Well today was both successful and eye opening for me and it was a good day. I went shopping for myself and actually enjoyed it for the first time in a long long time. I found myself excited to be trying on clothes and dressing this new body I have been working so hard on for the last 6 months.
I went to Old Navy first and got myself a pair of size 12 jeans. I was shocked that they had a little room and I did not have to squeeze into them. Then I got some shirts in Medium and Large. I honestly think the last time I fit into a medium size shirt was in high school. High school was definitely 10 years ago!!!!! Now I am regretting ordering my fit bee t-shirt in an XL. It is just weird honestly looking at the sizes and while I was shopping I had to keep reminding myself no you are not an XXL you are not a 16 anymore. It is just out of habit that you keep looking at the same types of things.
Next stop was Macy's where I got an awesome deal on some marked down work pants 3 pairs for $30! Dress pants apparently run larger than jeans because I fit into a size 10! A freaking 10! Like I think I did a woot woot in the fitting room and probably got a couple of side eye glances when I left LOL but did I care? NOPE! I mean I went in with a size 14, 12 and a 10 but I was sure I was a 14 because in the past I always had to go up a size in dress pants, well not anymore :)
Last stop was Victoria Secret for the first time since about 4 years ago when I fit into their stuff. I was in search of the perfect bra and I think I got a few good ones. I was just so happy to actually be fitting into their things. The sales lady was amused by me I think because I was so excited. I told her why after wards and it was nice to hear congratulations. I even got a girl working there interested in Weight Watchers because she was around the size I used to be and has a baby too!
Then it got me thinking about my journey, and how far I have really come. If you had told me 7 months ago that I would be in size 12 jeans, buying size 38 bras at VS and size 10 dress pants, I would have probably laughed at you and then got depressed even considering it. 7 months ago I was crying because nothing fit and I was so fat and felt so ugly. Last year I was weighing 270lbs and taking care of a newborn baby. I thought I did well when I lost the 22lbs I gained during the pregnancy and went back into my size 16 pants. I thought I was doing well at 255lbs and I could do it on my own.
Then one day I looked in the mirror, looked at pictures of myself and just felt so fed up. I got tired of being over weight, tired of taking 2 Celebrex daily to keep my Rheumatoid Arthritis under control. Tired of being on 2 different heart medications just to be comfortable. I was tired of being fat and tired all the time. And that was the last day of the old me and the birth of the new me. And now I am hoping to inspire more people like the woman I met today. I realized that I have done something great and I should be happy to share it and shout it out from the rooftops! I lost 50lbs and this is how I did it and you can do it too!
And I look at my shopping trip today as a celebration of the new me, the fit bee. I look at it as only a milestone in the journey I am embarking on. I enjoyed buying clothes today because I am finally comfortable in my body. I was not embarrassed to ask the saleslady for my size. I am embracing who I am and what I can wear. I know it will continue to change and evolve but I am so excited right now that I have made it this far!
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